OY!
planning a wedding seemingly without your fiance is a pain in the butt! I know that He is there, and that he is working hard on ministry things, and trying to make it so we have enough time together...so I cannot really say much..but it is still hard sometimes =\. tonight was especially hard. I did all the save the dates by myself. He went to youthgroup, and then stayed after to talk with a pastor friend of his for....close to 4hours after, and that led to like...almost 1am.
It doesn't bother me that he is out that long...it is frustrating when he tells me he will be home at 10, and then isn't for..another couple hours...
UGH selfishness... i will get over this one day? .....*shrugs*
We talked for a long time when he got home ,explaining how we each felt and he just broke down letting me know how he felt like there just wasn't enough time in the day...I just hurt for him. I don't know what to do. I know he has so much to do, and so many dreams in his head he wants to chase for God....am i hindering him? in wanting him to be with me to help for the wedding? .... .
I am so proud of him and told him so :)...I love him so much and can't wait to see what God has for us...but man this planning a wedding and him having to work, and do ministry and .....make time for me...oy lol ....
God i am asking you for strength for both of us as this is a stressful time. We don't know where we are going or whats going to happen..but we do know who is in control...and who is our help <3 .....Thank you Lord for knowing
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